Friday, May 8, 2009

Solving the puzzle

Lately I find myself drawn to doing jigsaw puzzles. I like the 1000 piece not-too-easy but not-too-hard types. There are tons of reasons why I like doing them. I get some great conversations with my kids and husband, especially Talia - that patient girl just loves talkin' and puzzlin'. When I'm done with each puzzle I get a rare feeling of accomplishment (my puzzle rule: you start a puzzle you get to finish the puzzle). It gives me time to think about all kinds of things and also clear my head. Oh, and it gets me away from the damn computer.

Best of all, though, is the escape. Okay, I'll admit, these last few heavy puzzling weeks, things around the house have been neglected a bit, like the laundry that needs folding or the scary dirty bathroom or the 5,000 other "to-do" list items waiting to be finished. I'll sit down at the puzzle table and next thing I know it's two hours later. I feel a twinge of guilt about all that "wasted" time. But, with no real vacations plans or girlfriend getaways scheduled this year, I'm in tremendous need of an escape. I'm in limbo with my job - still employed, to my surprise, but totally uncertain when that will end, the summer is fast approaching and the kids will need activities, and my grand visions of reinventing my working life and doing something totally new and exciting are on hold, indefinitely.

I don't need the puzzles to escape from a bad life, in fact, life is good right now and I'm not complaining. But, almost three months ago when I got the word about losing my job, I expected my life to take a giant leap forward with new career options and possibilities. Heck, just the thought of having new found free time after five plus years of working from home made me smile even with new money worries. Only now, I feel like I'm in a holding pattern and I think it's messed with my head a bit. I'm more than happy to still be working at a great place with fantastic people in a dream situation, but I do struggle a bit with keeping a positive smile and go-getter attitude when I know any day I'll be done there.

Maybe I need to spend less time doing puzzles and more time networking and planning the next fabulous getaway. But, just maybe it's exactly what I need right now. I can think of far worse things to spend my time doing other than petting my "neglected" cat while I search for that elusive roof piece. When the time comes, I know I'll step up and move my life forward. For now, I'll just appreciate the calm and relaxation that puzzles piece at a time and one day at a time.

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